I have had objectively a very busy and very crazy two weeks, and I'm EXHAUSTED!!!
Starting with the biggest change, I've nuked my phone and now she is super barren so I stop using it 10+ hours a day. I watched a Eddy Burback video regarding phone usage shortly after my last blog post, and it resonated with me so hard that at 3am that night, I deleted like 75% of my apps. I kept Spotify and Youtube because they aren't super intrusive, but otherwise it is back to basics. I now average about 3ish hours per day across Safari, Youtube, and my messaging apps.
Second change of the cycle, I have had a new job twice! I started with a company I had been interviewing with on the 8th, and hated it so bad I quit after my first shift (LOL). To be fair, there was a TON of disregard for my schedule throughout the hiring process and it continued into my main schedule, so it wouldn't have worked regardless. Luckily, I got another job basically the next day so I now work for that store instead.
Lastly, it is my final month at community college. Exams are kicking my behind like CRAZYYY!!! I am doing well though, my recent scores are an 84 for my Calculus exam and an 80 on my Chemistry exam. I could've done better, but I am not gonna beat myself up over it since I can still try now to finish with an A in both courses.
Double lastly, I lost my entire wallet (which stupidly had my social security card in it for new job reasons) so that was a huge whammy.
That is all folks! -Toby
I consider myself to be a math person, less out of actually liking math but more out of neccessity. I (however) will forever have a BURNING hatred for Calculus.
Calculus as a study has got to be something created in the depths of hell to make me reconsider whether I should drop out of college and pursue my true (sarcasm) passion of being a caricature artist. I love science, I love every bit of it, but the second I have to log into my canvas page for Calculus I suddenly ask myself how much I really do love science.
Don't even get me STARTED on applying calculus to physics! I HATE physics, easily my least favorite subject. Maybe it's the chronically bad professors at my college, or maybe it's the fact that physics is a stupid ass study. I get why it exists, and I appreciate that it does exist, but man I sure wish I didn't have to take it. Anyways, having to put two subjects I don't really get together makes me feel like I'm bluescreening every single time.
If you like these subjects or think they're easy, good for you I don't really care. I'm sure it's great when you're not miserable doing it
Love you - Toby
I've been having a lot of fun learning HTML and CSS for the past month or so! It's so crazy that my journey started as a passing thought while walking through the mall, badly missing my old job. I lost a lot of access to one of my biggest passions with the closure of the toy store I had worked in, and struggled to find something that resonated the same way talking toys to people all day did.
Originally, I had sought out to fulfill my love of toys using Tumblr, a website I had been familiar with in my previous fandom ventures. I had stopped using it about 2-3 years ago, and found returning to it to be difficult. I'm not a very social person, and struggle a lot with the "rules" of Tumblr culture, especially after being gone for a while. I still desired to blog and build up a "database" of sorts to act as a way to collect my thoughts and love for things, eventually landing on building a website (somehow).
My idea of what I wanted my website to be fell far from the tree that the corporate web has grown into. A lot of my favorite websites are niche databases that have existed probably about as long as I have lawl. I spend hours sluggishly looking through YouTube tutorials on "How To Start a Website", wincing at each mention of the cost associated with hosting a site (sorta) independently. Eventually, I caved and searched "Free Website Host Reddit" and finally came acrossed what I was missing in my 2025 internet wandering, the Indie Web.
All of this storytelling to say I have thoroughly enjoyed going website to website, gathering ideas on what I can do and how far I can push pure HTML/CSS shenanigans. Origanally, my journey into website building was just to create Virtual Toy Aisle, my (hopefully) soon to thrive toy website. However, my sheer excitement to learn and create has me now here, on Robotic Dreams, to let myself go wild and do whatever I feel like day to day (also to learn more fundamentals shhh).
Thanks for readingggggg - Toby